Business and Stocks

Dear Readers

Current mood: Motivated

Now for years, i've been ranting to many people about my dream to open a cafe , business or starting stock trading. However as you can see , i haven't made much off an effort to do anything , and dreams wont pop up on its own! so I'm giving myself a little push! But ideas and opinions are in order.

Ok. First is the cafe. Now! from the general consent of people i'd talked to... cafes are hard. Its success largely factors places, promotions,s people, prices and blah blah, if you know business you'll understand the 7P's. Anyway problem is competitors like star buck , gloria jeans and coffee bean kinda took all the good stuff. So my question here is should i continue to try set up a cafe? and if yes! tell me some good places to rent and some ideas to differentiate myself from the rest (Hint: What would you like your cafe to have?)

Next! Business, alternatively i was thinking of set up a small business , not really online but really ... you know, a store kinda thing. I have some ideas but i'd like to gather some ideas you would like. Go CRRAZY!!! think of something , even u can think of something that doesn't need a space and a website , even better. haha oh , I'm hoping to get feedback too, i know people who have their own business , so some experience to shred light on this would be great (Esther?)

lastly , and something i REALLY REALLY REALLY wish to have! haha is a mentor to guide me the ropes in Stock trading . i was thinking to earn 3000 a month through it ,heard with a bit of work its possible and actually minimal but the problem is with all the scams around and the after reading my investment books , its wasn't much help. So I'm Asking please help me out here , if you know anyone who is capable in trading , please kindly recommend him or her to me. thanks!

P.S i don't do MLM business ... please don't suggest it . thanks

I have to stop running

Dear Readers

Current mood: I dunno what to make of it , half sad, half happy... half regretful

I just watched an episode of an episode of " The Mentalist". It's one of those episode that makes you reflect our your own life. It certainly made me think about my life, i realized that my whole life has been a big cover. A grand race away from realities of life.

Yes. I realized i have never faced anything dead straight in my life, i know you may not get what I'm saying but bear with me. Truth is i think I'm scared of life... I'm afraid of conflicts, I'm afraid of what people think of me, I'm afraid of facing people's views, I'm afraid of being alone, I'm afraid of god, I'm afraid of not being able to enjoy life, I'm afraid that my lies will come back and haunt me one day, I'm afraid of my father, I'm afraid of disappointing my family, I'm afraid of being an incompetent, I'm afraid that I'm not doing anything about it, I'm afraid of not being good at anything, I'm afraid that i have no one to call my own, I'm afraid that I'm weird, I'm afraid that i don't fit in now, I'm afraid of the regrets in my life, I'm afraid of letting go.........

I'm pretty sure there are a lot more I'm afraid of (These are what i can think of for now). But how do i know I'm afraid of these things?... Literally the way i live my life is testimony of it. I avoid everything that I'm afraid of.... i seek an escape for each thing I'm afraid and never facing it... i guess some can see it. My over-closeness, weirdness, my isolation, me keeping people from truly understanding me, my conflicted-behavior, childish manner of seeking praise, lies, delusions , self-absorb-ness, my addiction to feeling victimized, my tendencies to let people run over me, the unusual way i interact with people, shadiness, are all the accumulated result of me not facing life when i had the chance.

Kinda make me regret parts of my life ... when i think about it. Well i guess there is no point now ... only got to look forward and make the best with what i have now... and tackle each insecurities down. It was difficult for me to share this with you .... but.... i trust you (whoever is reading this) to not judge me for them ... but support me as i overcome each one.

my way to stop avoiding what's presently in front of me.

VALENTINE! OH VALENTINE! WHY HAVE U FORSAKEN ME?

Dear Readers

Current mood: Contented

AWW ... love and relationship, the lovely feeling of young love. To have the wonderful sensation of knowing someone special out there is loving you for who you are. The period you think you found someone who truly understands you and will always have your back. It a nice feeling isn't it? haha Well thanks Valentine for reminding me that i don't have all that. haha

Yes folks, it Valentines day...again. A simple excuse for couples to go out to set some love ablaze... once again. For the couples , have fun. For singles , haha I'm free. And for the dearly broken hearted ....I'm free too. hahahahaha! Joking.

I think over the years of teen suppression, we've grown to overlook the true meaning of Valentines. YES YES! its about the lovely dove-y things as well but there is more then that! its about truly loving someone! i repeat TRULY LOVING SOMEONE! not just that kind of Orchard-couple-hold-hand-kiss-kiss kind of love but one that is shared between friends and family (You know, appreciating each other , having fun together, that kind of thing).

So... share the love this Valentines with everyone and anyone who has step in your life!

P.S And word of advice... u see someone you want to go out on a date with ... just ask! Bloody hell save the pride for some other time. hahahaha!

Could WORK overturn the blog...NO!!

Dear Readers

Current mood: Reflective

How does it feel to have a life ran by another. This overwhelming truth that there will always be someone or something pulling your strings. Whether its a boss or our own hunger , we are always being pulled. Then what does it take to be free of it all , what is that "pull" that needs to be broken, for you be alive. For a friend, thats dropping a path of education that she knows will not serve her well. What i see there, is a certain clarity that not a lot of has, who can say that they have chosen a path made truly by themselves ... she can. And right now despite cruel objections from the people around her , i say "Cheers! you have my support". Heh , her eyes shows no regret, only sadness from disregarded support, her mouth speaks no remorse , only determination of living , her body shows no stop , cause this is her path...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Haha, now the last entry , i mentioned about walking in peoples shoes. Jonathan has stepped up haha but here lays the problems , i haven't met him up for ages. haha! YO! BRO , after i meet up with you then i'll continue k? haha