Current mood: Discouraged
I was rather bored and in the midst of it , i stumbled a reminiscing site , my former emo blog. For some reason it felt comforting to have found it again. Lets say that , i have a lot to express and well expressing it on any more socially exposed sites is going to hurt my already dropping image i feel :) Cheers and praise god for finding a space to pour out everything again:)
Alright, so lets start:) i've been feeling rather emo these few days (* also contributed by my down right irritating flu ) And i've been reflecting on why . So .....WHAO ! where to start ! hmm ....
OK , i think the first thing that struck me was this distinctive feeling that i been viewed as someone very foolish , naive and childish ... to put it simply, this judgement tagged on my back that "I'm been looked down upon" . Sadly , its usually by the very people i look up too . Not naming names here , but if u have to think about it , you're probably be one of them. Well looking at it from a different point of view....an argument against my over-sensitive notch would be that it's my fault in the first place. See people around me won't look down on me if i have not acted the way that would suggest it. Now comes the problem ... how do you change so that others see the way you want to be seen?
Sadly , i've yet to discover the answer to that. But the issue that could summarize my predicament , is I'm not contented with how/who I'm , i want to be better ! in everything ...! *( i have this feeling this statement is going to cause a stir )
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